Long-awaited updates

Meggan recently prodded me with some questions in a comment on my last entry that finally convinced me to write an entry about what’s going on in my exciting life.

I know I mentioned it quickly in a comment on one of Sarah’s blog entries, but I never came out and told the rest of the Internet world who still read my blog. I did get married. The “ceremony” took place on August 27th. Nothing fancy. We got our license the day before, then made an appointment with the mayor of a neighboring town for the marriage ceremony the following day. I wasn’t really sure what to expect with a wedding like this, but I was pleasantly surprised. It didn’t take long, which I had figured, and we got to saw vows. We went in at 10, were out before 10:15 and were officially husband and wife. I still can’t really believe it. I don’t feel any different being married. I’m happy that we did it the way we did. I’ll get my real ceremony with friends and family in due time, but what we did was right for the circumstances and I don’t regret any of it.

Now for the subject that most of you really want to know about - the baby. As of today, I’m halfway through week 17, which makes it 10 weeks since I even knew anything was going on inside my body. I had an appointment with my primary care doctor at the end of September in order to get a referral for an OBGYN. My first appointment with the OBGYN was then last Tuesday. This appointment consisted mostly of filling out paperwork and answering all sorts of questions. They took my height and weight, did a urine test, a blood test (my arm is still bruised) and the other typical gynecological stuff. She told me how far I was along, gave me a due date, poked around inside and outside my abdomen, let me hear the baby’s heartbeat, said I was doing wonderfully, gave me some prenatal vitamins and sent me on my way. I have an appointment on the 28th for an ultrasound and even though I wasn’t very excited about it at the time, I cannot wait to go now! I wish it was the end of the month already!

I was really unsure of what to expect at the initial appointment. I read online that I should take a family history with me so I was prepared for that, but I was very nervous about everything else. I never go to the doctor unless something is wrong (if I even go then) so it’s pretty much programmed into me to be scared as hell in a doctor’s office. It’s no wonder my blood pressure is raging high when the nurse first takes it (thankfully they understand this). I was also upset that Ryan couldn’t be with me. But that was unavoidable because he had to work. I just felt very out of place because I know nothing about this whole baby thing. I read things online here and there but I still feel completely clueless. I still feel like this isn’t really happening to me. I still found it hard to be excited about whenever the doctor congratulated me and told me that she was going to attempt to let me hear the heartbeat. I would have felt better had Ryan been with me - he’s seemed more excited about it than me up to this point - but once I was able to talk to him on the phone that night about everything that had happened, I started to become very excited. He thought it was the coolest thing that I got to hear the heartbeat and kept asking me to describe how it sounded. I made sure that he would be able to come with me to the ultrasound appointment because this will pretty much solidify things for us - show us that this really is going to happen. And also show us whether we’re having a boy or girl!

It’s kind of hard to believe when I’m still not even showing. I actually lost 6 pounds between the two appointments (even though I eat everything in sight) and my body doesn’t really seem to be any different other than the fact that my boobs are even larger now than they were before…and they were pretty damned large before all this happened! My abdomen seems to be a little tighter feeling, but I have some pudge down there so it’s still hard to tell what’s baby and what’s fat. I’m sure in a month or two I’ll be able to tell the difference!

All in all, I’m really happy right now and really excited about how things are developing. It’s so hard to believe I’m almost halfway through with this and that by March 21st, there won’t be only two of us anymore.