What I’ve been up to

Long time, no update.

No shit, and that’s because I pretty much closed down my site last time I did update. I still don’t really know what state this place is in, but due to extreme boredom these past few days, I’ve decided to do a little update on my life since it’s changed quite a bit since I wrote here last. I can’t believe it’s been almost two months since then.

I guess you could say that the main thing that has changed is my place of residence. I left the cold, rainy northeast and flew south (well, I actually drove - that was the longest 12 hours of my life). I’m in Memphis now sharing an apartment with my boyfriend. There are two funny things about this statement. First off, I still can’t even believe that there’s a man in my life who I can truly call a boyfriend - a man who cares just as much about me as I do him. It seems weird to call him a boyfriend, too, because he’s much more than that to me. Secondly, I never thought the day would come when I would move out of my mom’s house. It sure as hell took long enough and I’m glad it finally happened. I love it down here.

However I don’t love it as much down here when he’s not here. A lot of that has to do with me not having a job yet. I’ve just been so spoiled to have him around all the time and I get really used to him being around all the time. Sometimes he has 9-day stretches of not having to work so we spend the days waking up at 11am, lounging around until 2, then finally taking showers and making ourselves get out and actually do something only to return a few hours later to lounge around some more and eat grilled cheese sandwiches. It’s awesome when he’s here because I’m happy just being around him whether we’re doing something exciting or not, but the lounging around and doing nothing start to get to me when I’m by myself. It just isn’t fun to sit around by yourself all day on the computer anymore. And I actually don’t do that a lot lately even when I am alone. I just don’t see the same appeal in it as I did years ago.

I can only go on for an additional month or so like this. I’ve been here for about a month, but with bills to pay and bank accounts emptying, I need to find a job within the next few weeks. It’s getting somewhat frustrating because there’s no way I’m going to find another airline job right now with most of them shutting down and merging. But of course an airline job is what I really want. I really miss having the ability to fly anywhere I want for nothing. Now I’m stuck in Memphis, though I have to keep reminding myself that this is where I wanted to be and this is where I ended up. Most of the time when I flew, I flew to Memphis. So now that I’m here, I just need to be happy with that. Travelling home every once in awhile would still be nice, I must admit. I actually wouldn’t mind being home right now since my man left me for the Caribbean this morning. So even though I’m sad that he’s gone for a few more days (only 1.5 as of tonight), I’m happier now than I have been in any other period of my life. If I could only find a job that allowed me to work only on the days that he worked, life would be perfect, but hey, I guess not everything can be perfect.