I kind of feel bad that updates here are so few and far between. There’s so much going on in my life right now, though, and as anyone who has a blog knows, as soon as things begin picking up in the real life, the blog entries usually become fewer and fewer. I’ve been thinking a lot lately, too, about whether or not I really want to keep this site. Closing it down has crossed my mind several times, but at the same time, I don’t know if I can part with my site. I’ve had a presence on the Internet since 1999 now - almost 10 years - so just abruptly pulling away is kind of hard for me.
Falling in love with somebody that I didn’t meet on the Internet has really changed my life. I no longer have to sit around talking over AIM and updating blog entries so he knows what I’m up to. I can simply call him up. Or he can call me. And we do this for hours every day. Of course he still lives 500 miles away, but we see each other more than a married couple. Pretty impressive when you work screwy hours at an airline and are dating a pilot who lives in one city and is based in another.
I’m very happy with the way things are working out in my life right now and quite truthfully, a lot of those things don’t need to be written in blog entries available to the public. Every time I sit down to write, the only things I could write about are really things that should not be said on the Internet for one reason or another. Some things are too personal, others just don’t need to be out in the open.
I’ve thought about possibly just keeping the site with only a blurb about myself and post only photos, but I don’t know how often I could really update something like that. I never find myself taking photos anymore so it would be a boring website for visitors. I suppose It’d be more for me, my friends and my family than anything else. I’m done with the blog scene, though. At least for now. I have a real life to take care of. The only time I’m ever on my computer anymore is to check e-mail in the morning and evening. I don’t need to waste countless hours in front of my computer creating new graphics for my site or writing boring blog entries about how I woke up, went to work and had a bad day. I have a wonderful man who occupies most of my time now Everything that I wrote about months ago seems completely meaningless in comparison to everything going on in my life now.
So I’m not sure what really will happen to this place in the next month or so. Deleting the old stuff is certain, but what I’ll put up here to replace it is something I’ll have to think about.
And who knows, maybe I will decide to continue on at some point.
22.03.2008, 14:18
Category: Thoughts, Daily Ramblings
“I knew you’d be someone I’d have a blast with in real life.”
That’s how I always felt about you. It seemed like we were always going through similar things in our lives and I could always relate to things you wrote about. Even though I may not update my own blog, I’ll definitely keep up with reading yours! You are one of the few people who keep a blog that I actually enjoy reading on a regular basis. I think it would be awesome, too, if we had the chance to meet in real life sometime.
I won’t disappear from the Internet completely. I’m sure there will always be days when I feel like doing nothing but sitting in front of my computer!
I feel the same way, most days. I don’t have the time to sit in front of the computer. And when I do, I have nothing to write about. No one reads my blog, but you and Jack, so what’s the point?
That’s exactly how I feel. No one really reads my blog anyway. Or if they do, they never comment (so I have no idea if they read it or not).
Oh no! That’s really too bad… There is always a small phase where a website owner doesn’t see a point to the website anymore. I hope you can see to keep this site — it’s really nice. I believe that a website owner shouldn’t necessarily design/post for the readers, but post for yourself, and make your site for you. It’s your expression, so you can do whatever you want with it.
That’s wonderful that you’ve found love in your life :) :) I’m very happy for you.
Good luck and best wishes
Hey!
It’s refreshing to see you posting things that are more upbeat - instead of the “how I woke up, went to work and had a bad day” brand you alluded to.
Maybe your lack of interest in maintaining a blog might be a part of growing up. I know I hardly post in my LJ anymore, mostly because I can’t really think of things that are necessary to post for the public domain (even if that public domain is limited just to my friends). Some things are best not written in places like that. If I really, really need to get it down somewhere, there are more private places for that. I want to use my LJ to post more about ideas than my daily life, but I never get around to it because of lack of ideas or time constraints.
I’m glad I stumbled across you online some years back. I had fun talking to you back in your crazy college sophomore days, and wouldn’t you know - I aspired to be like you? Although I haven’t really acted on it yet, I always wanted to improve my web design and graphic design skills because of you. And I was a big fan of your sense of humor.
We lost touch after that year, for the most part. And I wasn’t great with keeping up with all your blog entries. But once your blog is gone, I’d still like to keep in touch. I’m not sure where to begin because I’m not sure how different you are from where I left off… but I”m sure I’m different, too.
Be expecting something in your inbox from me sometime in the near future. Until then, keep living it up.
- Jackie
hm, I think I know how you feel and in my experience it is not idea to keep moving if you start feeling like that.. it’s a shame, but you can always come back - and if you do a motivational break is the best thing you can do for your site.. in my opinion
I admit this makes me a little sad since I love your blog, but it’s nice to have new priorities and goals.
Robmarie
What? Nooooooooooooooooo!
Just kidding. Sort of.
I’ve always loved your blog; you are one of the few people who manage to produce an interesting entry every time. From the moment I stumbled upon it (back when it was alpha-helix.net), I knew you’d be someone I’d have a blast with in real life. :D
I’m truly happy for you and hope all goes well with you. It seems like you finally found someone who loves you how you deserve to be loved; someone you’re truly compatible with and makes you happy.
I also hope that you fulfill of being a pilot. Now you seem to be closer than ever!
In any case, I hope that you don’t completely disappear from the internet! Your presence will be missed :( But I’m truly glad that you’re out and about living life.
As for stress and problems, obviously they’re bound to happen; it just means that you’re being an active agent in your own life, and that is always a good thing.
Well, this comment is officially too long, so I’ll stop now. Take care, and don’t disappear. :)
~ Robmarie