I kind of feel bad that updates here are so few and far between. There’s so much going on in my life right now, though, and as anyone who has a blog knows, as soon as things begin picking up in the real life, the blog entries usually become fewer and fewer. I’ve been thinking a lot lately, too, about whether or not I really want to keep this site. Closing it down has crossed my mind several times, but at the same time, I don’t know if I can part with my site. I’ve had a presence on the Internet since 1999 now - almost 10 years - so just abruptly pulling away is kind of hard for me.
Falling in love with somebody that I didn’t meet on the Internet has really changed my life. I no longer have to sit around talking over AIM and updating blog entries so he knows what I’m up to. I can simply call him up. Or he can call me. And we do this for hours every day. Of course he still lives 500 miles away, but we see each other more than a married couple. Pretty impressive when you work screwy hours at an airline and are dating a pilot who lives in one city and is based in another.
I’m very happy with the way things are working out in my life right now and quite truthfully, a lot of those things don’t need to be written in blog entries available to the public. Every time I sit down to write, the only things I could write about are really things that should not be said on the Internet for one reason or another. Some things are too personal, others just don’t need to be out in the open.
I’ve thought about possibly just keeping the site with only a blurb about myself and post only photos, but I don’t know how often I could really update something like that. I never find myself taking photos anymore so it would be a boring website for visitors. I suppose It’d be more for me, my friends and my family than anything else. I’m done with the blog scene, though. At least for now. I have a real life to take care of. The only time I’m ever on my computer anymore is to check e-mail in the morning and evening. I don’t need to waste countless hours in front of my computer creating new graphics for my site or writing boring blog entries about how I woke up, went to work and had a bad day. I have a wonderful man who occupies most of my time now Everything that I wrote about months ago seems completely meaningless in comparison to everything going on in my life now.
So I’m not sure what really will happen to this place in the next month or so. Deleting the old stuff is certain, but what I’ll put up here to replace it is something I’ll have to think about.
And who knows, maybe I will decide to continue on at some point.